The Adventures that go beyond Narnia

Sorry about the lack in updates, I've been real busy. Yea so I quite K-mart (little ceasers)and I now have a job at McDonalds. Attually its really not that bad, I don't mind it, yet. Al and Dave are bpth thinking about getting jobs there, so I might have friends! And if I get that amazing raise then maybe it'll be more friends! So I've been working a few hours here and there at McDonalds to get trained and 23-24 at k-mart. So its not fun, yea I asked for 20 hours and I got 22 then a raise from that to 23-24. That just kinda made me want to quit. Other than that I have an online art class! It's soooo amazing. I'm not really friends with anyone there, but all of them are very full of cool. I really enjoy it. So I've just been very busy, but soon it'll calm down more, thank god!

Today was really tiring.
I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment.

I feel sad, because Sarah and Britney are complete bitches. They told everyone I have an STD, just because I slept with both of their boyfriends on Saturday night.

I'm so stoned.

I am updating this journal for the first time in ages, because I've been in prison.

I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, and a healthy imagination.

That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this poem I wrote. It's about my friend Robert, who has bipolar disorder. Just like me. And Heidi.

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I've been rolling over something that someone said to me for the past hour and its been really starting to get to me. I was driving home from art with Ainsley and I asked her what Carolin had said about my portfolio, generally. And she said that I needed better work that was less whinny. Which is true, but then last friday she said how the peice I was working on was just crap and to burn it. But she sat down and helped me work on it, which was cool...but what she said kinda stuck with me. I was just working on that painting and since most of it isn't even schetched out so most of its going to be made up and I just don't know what to put there. I think I'll go outside and just paint what I see there, or something... I don't know maybe I jsut need a break, hahaha summers ending... hahaha shoot me.... ug

Hello sorry about the lack in updates, lifes gotten really bussy and every free moment I get its spent doing school stuff or sleeping. I haven't been feeling well lately, but today I feel much much better. I think I caught the cold at the warpped tour or after it that night. Lifes been crazy lately. Lets see I worked on some story stuff, which was good fun, it was meg's b-day yesterday, yay! It was kinda funny she called at 10:40ish last night and was all I'm coming over. When she got here she had hickies all over her neck. Man oh man was that funny, I had to try covering them up for her, but it was fun. I've been trying to read peoples journals to see what everyone's been up to and my close woodbury friends all have the same consenious that this summer sucks. It had some bad points, but the changes that happened I think helped us grow alot. Or at least realize some things about each other and ourselves. But lifes crazy and it makes me so glad to be able to write down my thoughts without any haste here... I think thats the best. (Sorry its just a tad early for me)

I know I complain alot, about the same things most of the time. And I know it sounds lame and that I sound like a looser and everything when I talk about it, but I just wanted to say something about it. I'm really quite a happy-go-lucky person and I know my problems aren't that big, I just need to vent here and there, thats all. I dunno if I were anyone I wouldn't read this often, its me complaining and I'm kinda sorry for being boring and all.

Ug I just got home from work. And guess who's acting up again? M-O-M. See since I've got this job that only does direct deposits,a nd my bank account doesn't let me withdraw money from it. Of course she was the one who set it up this way, and its rediculous. I already gave Donna my account number and its annouying to go back and change it, and anyways I do want some of my money in there, since she's an ass and all. I dunno I'm still deciding if going off and paying for my college edu. on my own is a good idea, cause its westernwesternwestern for them. And I'd really like access to my money. Its not like I intend to spend it all in one day or anything, I just want to have some lax money incase I have to miss a week of work. I duno she talks to me in this condisending voice that drives me crazy, like it all goes in one ear and out the other.

Attually I just thought of a good idea... opening my own account. That might work, now finding $50 to start it....

Okay I'm off to be angry somewhere else.

Alrighty, I think I kinda fixed my computer... well from virus's that is. But now I'm convinced that the problem with my computers sound is that its not plugged in right. Which is alot better than a hardware problem, pleasegodletitbethewirespleasegodpleasegodpleeese

I finished the stand yesterday, it was amazing. Everyone should read it, even if you don't like Stephan King the books hard not to like. The characters are well developed and in depth. It was just amazing! But I still haven't gotten my stephan king fix so I'm going to finish the gunslinger then get to the red storm rising. So many things to read so little time. And so little time to work on my art stuff for school....

Alright need to go harass work...

Hurray! I'm at nikki's and I'm updating cause my computers l-a-m-e. Lets see whats new.... I work at little ceasers in k-mart. Yeah so I make pizza's wahoo. Ummm I got my lisence, and thats just scary, who would trust me with a car? Come on! So thats whats new and I'm off to roam!

Seeing BB with large breast really makes me laugh, attually thinking about that being a show makes me laugh, alot. Lets see, I start my k-mart job on monday! Wahoo the working world -_-. Umm I started to South beach diet. Its attually quiet nice, if you like vegtables, but if you wanna loose weight, it really does look like an amazing diet and change of eating sort of thing. Daves the modle for my art class, its interesting and kinda scary cause I've never seen him sit still for more than 10 minutes at a time. I've got my driving test this week! I hope I pass, cause that would blow if I didn't.... Oh well if I don't then I'll just take it again, happens to the best of us.

Wahoo an update! I've got a job interview at K-mart today! Fun fun fun. At least I'll have a job, I really need one, well I might have a job. I've been in and out of my house for the past two weeks. I was in cape cod then mom and dad went down to delware and I spent some good quality time at jenna's house, then I zoomed back up here and had some fun. Lets see my computer has some new crazed virus sooo its taking forever to update this or comment, but I think I've figured it out. Dave and I are all back together, but were not all boyfriend and girlfriend like, but neither of us is seeing anyone else, sooooo we're just werid. I got into another fight with mom, but she seemed sorry this morning and was all have a really good day. Ummm my diets going alright, minus the ice cream I had last night, but I've been walking alot so I guess I deserved a treat. I think I'll try walking 5 times a week, then jogging a few times. Ug I hate diets. And on a final not The Stand by stephan king is AMAZING!!!!M-o-o-n spells tom cullen......

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Just a quick post. I've kinda sorta lost my voice, so if I haven't called, thats why. Finals are next week so I'm busy studing and finishing up art work. I have to make up a h/w in art by doing a full value peice of these shoes, yuck. So right now I'm really bussy and I'll try making a better post later!

Yuck, today just suddenly turned lame. Normally I like to ignore the things that bother me because its easier and I'm not good at comfronting people. But whenever someone (normally someone who I'm already angry/hurt by I'm just ignoring those feelings at the moment)does the slightest thing to irritate me I completely jump all over them. Not really I jsut get pissed off. So at dinner my mom said you know stop eating werid, cause I wasand all, and I was going to after a few seconds, cause thats how I am. Then Dad said, do it before you ruin everyone else's dinner. Okay we don't talk at the dinner talbe, we don't look at each other, we eat. Sometimes if I have a loud friend over that sparks conversation, but other than that, silence. And we don't eat dinner together normally about once a week. Thats understandable, we all ahve lives of our own, we don't like each other and we live together because its traditional. Okay we don't hate each other or anything, we've all just sunken into ourselves and thats not pretty. I'm a slob, dad's selfish, and moms a nag. And together, well just give it some thought. Oh yea moms selfish too, and dads more disapointed by life.

Attually his disappointed about me, see I want to do something with art. And to him I'll be poor, living off of him instead of the way he wanted it. I'm not sure if he wanted me to support him in his old age, but I don't think thats right. So since I've confirmed that thats what I wanted to do, he hasn't really said much to me except his damn excuses for being mean to me lately, like "I'm just looking at it through an old amns eyes" Well duh, so grow up. So that also concludes why I can't take a summer art program, he wont pay for it and mom wants me to maybe do it next year. SEe I get the putting off things and not fighting for things from her. A year from now seems to be forever away. But someday it'll come, but that doesn't matter. CAUSE I CAN"T GO TO IT NEXT SUMMER... see I'llbe going to college or the navy or hell, but it wont be there. Bet your bottom dollar it wont be. I'm the only one who's found something they like early on out of both of them, hell out of this family. Nobodies known what they wanted to do! Paula was 30th in her class and she didn't know what she wanted to do, and she did much less than she could have. I personally feel that everyone should try and contribute to American culture, cause its yours and you should put in too. Publish a short story, write a poem, contrubte to an art show, anything!!!!!

My dad had this kick ass car, it was in magazines and everything. He sold it for my "college education" and god knows what happened to the rest of it, I think alot of it was lost in the stock market. Or he spent it. I don't know really, but if I go to art school my mom said I'd have to graduate in 3 years and dad said not at all. If I did I'd have to be a bussiness major once again to make lots of money. But I don't want money, they have some money, not alot, and nobody here is happen, well I'm surrely not. I want to be happy, and enjoy life. Before i remeber telling him that I'd be glad to have a few moments of happiness and live life that way. But I can't I want to enjoy my job, family, friends every moment I can.

I know things can't change, but why can't I hope?

I've been busy lately, sorry everyone. Lifes kinda hectic, sunday going to jessie F's house for a pool part, at. I've got driving hours and friday I have art and Shreck, maybe I'll see if Rob wants to go. That would be cool, I have to call him back, remind me to do that. Well not really cause that'd be werid if someone reminded me. I've got two people to give birthday presants to, so lifes just crazy. I 'm crazy. Mwahahahaha

I finished Slaughterhouse five by KurtVonnegut on monday. Damn good book and I finished Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck last week. I've realized that throughout history people have always been cruel, always and on all different levels. See but what kills me is all the fuss everybody else makes of all this cruelty. It just steams me! This has happened for centuries and your going to fight it by seprating yourselves fist! thats crazy. Everyone should listen to john lennons imagin and realize if you keep putting people in groups its never going to end anything! How can it your seprated! A house that is seprated can not stand, and its true! But being true is human nature, its part of every creatures nature. If you endanger a birds nest what does it do? try to kill you? In the grapes of wrath the man that plows over the joads home gets paid three dollars a day, he doesn't like his job, but he needs it. You do what you need to do to get by, thats life. People will be mean to people to get by in life, cause thats what they need to do, the media will try to sell you anything to get their three dollars at the end of the day to feed john smith or who evers family. Thats life. Over the years I've run across some pretty good qoutes for things like this, but the best one was in The House of Spirits, I've long since lost the book, but have every intention of finding the qoute. lol. Everyone should read SlaughterHouse five and find grapes of wrath on tape cause its a long a boring read untile midway through.

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.


Quick update, if anyone cares. lol. Umm I've been allergy sick all week and asleep as much as possible. I've been studing for math non stop, have to get a 79 this term, yuck. Haven't heard from anyone!!!! Jenna's being bitchy again so it makes me miserable. Haven't heard from my new friend joe in awhile, kinda worried, have portfolio reviews this whole weekend so I'll be busy as hell. Miss having a social life. Art tonight, Beverly tomorrow, Philly sunday- maybe I'll go with someone to spice up the trip. Have a good holiday!

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I'm attually I kinda want to see how this would go down

You know people amaze me sometimes. I was reading somebody's easyjournal and they were all oh he/she can set me free and help heal me. Come on! How is that possible? It just ticks me off that people don't see the key is inside themselves! You belong to nobody. Its just all crazy love talk and I don't get it. I've been in love before and all, but jeez open your eyes! I just don't understand people!

Other than that I've had a great day, go capt.

ITS SOOOO DAMN NICE OUT!!!! God get outside! I think I'm gonna go run around outside, right now, yes right now, lol with no pants!!!

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Now thats just funny. I'm in such a damn good mood, I don't think anything could really bring me down right now, well I know my math grade will tomorrow, but hell thats tomorrow! I've gotta live for today, in the moment, I've been to mopy for the past while, I'm just so happy right now, full of life and energy! OOOO I have a new friend too, he kicks. His name is Joe, but he needs a better nick-name. So I'll have to chill with him before he can get one of them. He's uber funny too, I've never heard one person make so many odd voices and noises in my life. Oh well I'm off to go be werid.